Ain’t nobody hurt you like I hurt you
But ain’t nobody need you like I do
I know that there’s others that deserve you
“Happier” – Ed Sheeran
Nothing hits you as hard as the person you love telling you that you only bring her closer to breaking down. Nothing will hurt as hard as losing the person you visioned you were gonna marry one day.
Today I’ve learned many things. I learned that I’m a terrible boyfriend. I learned that I’m so out of tune with my emotions that I can’t properly comfort my girlfriend. I learned that I’m selfish even when I’m trying to do what’s best for her. I learned that she doesn’t see the world the way I do. I learned that I’m not the person I envisioned myself.
How I wish I could turn back time and undo what damage I did and realize this earlier. Perhaps I could have saved this relationship. Perhaps then I could’ve realized our potential. I guess all I can do now is pray for the best and another chance.